She left you

  I felt a little collapse, stood up, went to Nuan's side, hesitated for a moment, and still reached out to hold Nuan. Nuan buried her head in my arms. Tears slowly flowed down.

  "Cry, just cry and get it over with. Why keep suppressing your emotions and putting on a poker face for others to see? You're actually very distressed, why do you always pretend to be nonchalant? I helplessly scratched my hair 'The world is already chaotic, who are we pretending to be innocent for?'"

  Nuan Nuan listened to my words and suddenly let out a "wow" before bursting into tears, crying uncontrollably with snot and tears everywhere. She cried for about ten or so minutes before gradually stopping her sobbing. I saw her pull out some tissues from her clothes. I looked at my own chest and chuckled, "You've cried it all out, feel much better now?"

  Nuan Nuan nodded slightly and smiled at me, "Let you see a joke." After that, she took my hand up "The blood on the back of your hand, where did it come from."

  "I caught it myself."

  "Why be so hard on yourself, even to the point of self-destruction."

  "I'm the kind of person who can't stand seeing girls cry. You're even worse, not only crying but also burying your face in my chest to cry. I almost collapsed, but I didn't dare say anything. In the end, I had no choice but to pinch myself, and fortunately, I endured it. Honestly, for me, I'd rather you hit me than cry in my arms."

  Nuan Nuan smiled and said, "Then didn't your previous boyfriend make you cry?"

  "Cry, cry miserably."

  "Was it you who cried miserably, or was it her."

  I thought for a moment and spread out my hands "Both are miserable."

  "You are a person who doesn't know how to deal with these emotions, and the usual consequence is that many people get hurt along with you, in the end, you still gain nothing."

  "Why say that about me."

  "After being in contact with you for these days, I feel that you don't understand what rejection is. You can let me cry and comfort me in your arms even though you have a girlfriend. Have you ever thought about how she would react if she knew?"

  I was stunned for a moment, and then smiled helplessly "I guess I've always been living like this."

  "Haven't you ever been punished?" Nuan Nuan smiled and said, "For example, the girl in your phone. You loved her very much, didn't you? But why did she leave you now?"

  "It was torn apart by others."

  "Even if it's just the two of us, there must be a reason why she can tear you apart, right? If there is a reason, then it must be a reason created by you." Nuan looked at me calmly and said, "Wang Yue, logically speaking, when I first found out I was pregnant, I hated you so much that I wanted to kill you. But as time went on, I couldn't bring myself to hate you. Just like now, looking at your actions earlier, I realized that I don't even hate you, and I actually kind of like you."

  "So I should feel honored now."

  Nuan Nuan shook her head "Do you love your girlfriend?"

  I smiled and said "I love her, of course I do. If I didn't, why would I be with her?"

  Nuan Nuan looked at me and said "Yeah, what did you say? What's up?"

  I was taken aback "What do you mean?"

  She looked at me with a warm and seemingly smiling yet not quite smiling expression "How did you two get together?"

  As soon as I heard it, my head "buzzed" and I said "How did you know all this?"

  "Do I have to tell you?" Her warm eyes were slightly provocative.

  "This thing, only I, Bo Long, Yang Qiong, Xiang Xiang, and Hu Jie know about it. Not even Houkou Dong or Pangzi Tao are aware of it, so how did you find out?"

  "Lying on the bed, I thought 'No matter what, if you want to keep it from others, don't do it yourself. It's really true. I especially believe in this sentence."

  "How did you know?" I continued to ask.

  "I forgot." Nuan Nuan smiled at me and said "If I remember someday, I'll tell you. I'm tired."

  I sighed "Forget it, no need to say anything anyway. Even if he didn't love me back then, there's feelings now."

  "You shouldn't be here."

  "Why."

  "Because your girlfriend knows about it and will be heartbroken."

  "No way, because the child in your belly is mine, I have this responsibility, I have this obligation."

  Nuan Nuan sat up and said, "You have a responsibility to so many girls, you have an obligation to so many girls. You don't know how to refuse them, but you want to take care of all of them. Can you handle it?" Nuan Nuan snorted and leaned back against the bed. "Do you know why you can never keep anyone around? It's because of this stupid sense of responsibility. I'm telling you, you don't need to be responsible for anyone else. You just need to take care of your own girlfriend. Got it?" She said bluntly, "To put it harshly, you're a philanderer." After finishing her words, Nuan Nuan took a deep breath and said, "Alright, I've said my piece. Maybe it was a bit too much, but just deal with it. If you don't want to listen, then pretend I'm just farting."

  I remained silent for a long time. "Do you know something? Why is it that I always feel like what you're saying is directed at me?"

  "I'm just saying what others have said." Nuan Nuan said straightforwardly, "That day you comforted me, coaxed me into happiness, and took care of me. Although we had a relationship, I, Qin Siran, didn't want to owe you anything. The second night when you were sleeping, I memorized the phone number of that girl named Xi Yu from your phone."

  I listened to Nuan's words and immediately lifted my head "What did you say?"

  "I memorized Yuè Yù's phone number, and when I got back to school, I gave her a call. Of course, I didn't mention anything about us two, I just said we were classmates, and that she was always depressed and drinking, making herself sound quite pitiful. I wanted to help you two make up, genuinely wanting to help you two make up, because I could sense it, you really loved her." Nuǎn Nuǎn said this, pausing for a moment "But some things you did were too excessive. That girl Yuè Yù was really quite pitiful. Do you regret it now? Regret is too late, she will never come back to your side again."

  "She said she would wait for me for four years."

  "Fool, she's been using those four years to thoroughly forget you." Nuan Nuan said with a warm and wild laugh "This phone call of mine has brought up many things about your past, that Lin Ran, and your former brothers. This one phone call has cost me over a hundred yuan in phone fees. But I feel it's worth it. I've learned a lot about your past." Nuan Nuan smiled as she said this "The lullaby you sang to her, she'll remember for a lifetime. You haven't contacted her during this time, have you? Go give her a call and see if the phone can still get through."

  I looked at Nuan Nuan, slowly picked up the phone and tried to call Xi Yu. The display showed that the other party's phone was turned off. "It's just turned off, it'll be back on soon."

  "Hehe, you're here having so much fun with your new girlfriend, have you ever thought of Xi Yu?"

  I don't love her.

  "Heh heh, you're now admitting that you don't love her anymore, but who's going to explain this to Yuè Yù? You've been so happy and devoted to the woman by your side every day, whoever sees it will believe that you don't love her. Whoever sees it will believe that you still love Yuè Yù."

  "Do you have Yu Wu's contact information?"

  Nuan Nuan shook her head, "I called Xi Yu twice. The first time I was curious and wanted to know about your situation. Xi Yu told me that she could tell me, but there was a condition for exchange." She paused here, "So that led to the second call. The condition Xi Yu mentioned was that if you had a new girlfriend, let me tell her, and then have me congratulate you on her behalf. You're not a reliable man. Don't say you still love Xi Yu, no one will believe it again. After I finished the second call with Xi Yu, she thanked me and said she would never use this number again."

  I suddenly remembered that when Nuan saw me and Zi Ya together before, the angry look in her eyes. I didn't understand what she was angry about at the time. It turns out, she knew about my relationship with Xi Yu, and she's also angry about that. She's also angry that I've found a new girlfriend and forgotten about Xi Yu.

  "You knew it was a misunderstanding between me and Ziya, so why didn't you tell Xiyu again?"

  "I didn't know at first, but I found out later." Nuan's voice was a little low. "After I started seeing you two together, I thought you were deeply in love, and you had forgotten about the woman who was infatuated with you, so I told Xi Yu, and after that, I couldn't contact her again. By the time I really found out about your relationship with Zi Ya, it was already too late to contact Xi Yu. I'm Qin Si Ran, if there's anything to say, just say it. You can blame me. At that time, I really didn't know about you two either."

  I smiled and lit a cigarette. "No big deal, when I get back, I'll definitely take back everything that's been lost."

  "Is it okay?" Nuan looked at me with a hint of a smile.

  I didn't say anything, I just remained silent. I simply continued smoking.

  "This is a hospital, you like smoking so much."

  I didn't speak, crouched in a corner, smoking.

  It's getting warmer outside, so I opened the window. "Can't you smoke a bit less? Is smoking that enjoyable?"

  I ignored Nuan, continued smoking, and before long, I had finished half a pack of cigarettes. The trash can next to me was full of cigarette butts, and the whole room was filled with smoke. Nuan opened all the windows, even though it was already December and quite cold outside, but I didn't feel the chill at all. Nuan had wrapped herself in a blanket and wasn't speaking anymore.

  Just then, my phone rang.

  I picked up the phone and said "Hello."

  "Six six, where did you go? I miss you so much. How come every time I wake up, I couldn't find you?"

  "I have something on my mind. Are you awake?"

  "Uh, husband." Zi Ya called out sweetly over the phone, "I want to eat KFC, can you buy some for me? I saw the snacks you prepared for me, but I don't feel like eating them. I want to eat KFC. Buy a take-out bucket and we'll eat it together."

  "Okay, wait for me."

  "Okay, bye, dear husband, hurry back, I don't want to stay here by myself," Zi Ya said and then kissed the phone.

  "Hang up the phone, I stood up. 'What do you want to eat? I'll buy it back for you. After that, I have to leave. You can stay here tonight or go back to school, whichever you prefer.'"