Give me one cigarette

  "What's wrong with you, still thinking about that woman?"

  "Come on, how could that be? I just suddenly remembered that it's been a long time since I've had a girlfriend, so I'm a bit hungry. You know, when I'm hungry, I like to think about Gao Weiwei."

  Right after that, I suddenly came to my senses, and even Fatso Taohu understood. The two of us immediately got out of bed, got down on the floor, and looked at Brother Dong. Brother Dong had a worried look on his face, smoking a cigarette, wearing only his underwear, which was bulging. The originally normal movie had been turned off, and he was silently muttering to himself "Should I watch Wutong Weiwei or Cangjie Weiwei or Xiao Ze Mawei?" Ah, ah, ah, it's still better to watch Xiao Ze Mawei." Then, the quiet night was filled with the sound of "ah, ah, ah" coming from outside.

  We are now used to falling asleep in Dong Ge's "ah" and "ah" sounds of the porn video, and waking up in his phone's "ah" and "ah" sounds.

  As a result, I lay down this time and couldn't sleep no matter what. Slowly, I took out my phone, found Lin Yifei's number, and dialed it. The phone rang for a long time, but no one answered. This situation rarely happens when I call Brother Fei. I don't know why. Then I called again. Still, there was only an empty ring, with no one answering. Looking at my phone, it was 11:30 PM, which should be a good time for Brother Fei as well.

  Lying bored, looking at the bald man's photo, feeling a bit uncomfortable. Got out of bed, walked to the balcony, smoking, thinking about everything in the past, dialed Yu Xu's phone number.

  I've been calling Yuxu for four months, from the end of June to now, it's almost the end of October. She has never answered my calls. This time, I didn't have much hope either, just thinking that after finishing this cigarette, I won't call again.

  But this time, the phone call actually went through.

  I couldn't believe my eyes, pinched myself hard to confirm it was real, then rushed to the phone and said slowly "Hello, Xi Yu?"

  Wang Yue

  I don't know why, but hearing the girlfriend who has been with me for so many years, from Liu Liu to Wang Yue, still feels a bit uncomfortable when I say "how have you been lately" in a soft voice.

  "It's okay, I'm in high three now, it's the last year, study hard." Her voice was also very calm and flat, without any emotional fluctuations.

  "I've been calling you for four months now"

  I know

  I love you

  I know

  "That day I didn't do anything"

  I know

  "Since you know everything, why are you still doing this."

  "Wang Yue, it's over."

  "But it's over now, there must be a reason for it."

  "There's no need to explain, what's past is past. I don't want to talk about those things anymore. It's your own fault for being so wishy-washy. You never belonged to me anyway. Time really is a great cure-all. I'm not as infatuated with you as I used to be, haha, so now I dare to answer your calls, Wang Yue. After all these years. Thank you for taking care of me in every way. Wang Yue, thank you for making me understand and mature so much. Wang Yue, thank you, I'm being sincere. We're still good friends, aren't we?"

  I don't know why but listening to Yu Wu's words, I felt a lump in my throat and wanted to cry. It was as if there were so many things I wanted to say, but when it came down to it, all that came out were two faint words: "Really?"

  "Right. Yu Wu chuckled on the other end of the phone, Wang Yue, every time you go to KTV, you've never sung a song for me. Every time I ask you to sing, you never have. Sing a song for me now. I've been by your side all these years, accompanying you, and I'm asking you to return one song to me, okay?"

  "What do you want to hear?"

  "I remember I always asked you to sing for me, but you never did. Now I want to hear it, okay? Sing a song for me, anything is fine. Before I turn 22, I won't find another boyfriend, you know that. I keep my promises, I admit I still love you, but I really can't continue accepting you like this. And I also know you have strong possessiveness, so I'll reserve myself for you, okay? During this time, I won't find a boyfriend."

  "Can I go back now?"

  "I want to hear you sing, okay? You sing for me, I'll wait. At 22 years old, I'll directly find someone to marry. If at that time we still can, we'll directly get married. Before then, I won't go to anyone's bed. I need time to adjust myself and forgive you. I just want a song from you, okay?"

  "Are you coming back now?"

  "You know, once I've made up my mind, no one can stop me. Are you singing? If you sing, just one song, I'll wait for four years. Or, I'll hang up the phone now and we'll go our separate ways."

  I smiled and said, "I forgot how long it's been since I last heard you tell me your favorite story. I thought for a long time, and I started to panic, wondering if I had done something wrong again." As I sang this part, my tears flowed out uncontrollably, remembering all the happy moments I shared with Yu Xi over the years. On the other end of the phone, I heard her crying too, but I couldn't stop singing. "You cried and told me that fairy tales are all lies. I'm not your prince, maybe you won't understand." I choked up and couldn't continue, my tears streaming down uncontrollably. After a pause, I continued to sing, "From the moment you said you loved me, my sky lit up with stars. I want to become the angel in fairy tales that you love, spread my wings and protect you." I wiped away my own tears. "You have to believe that our ending will be like a fairy tale, happy and joyful. Let's write our own ending together." I really couldn't sing anymore, and on the other end of the phone, Yu Xi's sobbing grew louder, heart-wrenching. Then, she hung up the phone.

  I fell onto the cold floor and buried my head between my knees, sobbing bitterly.

  I cried for a long time, and slowly lifted my head. I saw Dong Ge and Pang Zi Tao, the two of them were in front of me, not saying a word.

  I rubbed my eyes, not saying a word. I was about to head out, but it was so late, and I didn't even know what I wanted to do outside. The dormitory gate had already been closed, but I just felt like going out for a walk.

  Big Brother Dong reached out and stopped me "Liu Er"

  I smiled at Dong Ge "I'm fine, what brings you here?"

  Big Brother Dong shook his head "What kind of past do you really have"

  I spread out my hands and said, "You're the same as me, and so is Tao Ge. Everyone has their own past, some memories that they can never erase. Don't you think?"

  "But why are you crying again? In my impression, you should be a very strong person. We haven't been in touch for long, but you're a man of principle. We all know that when there's something on your mind, it's better to speak out. You're a man, and you have some masculine pride. What's with this behavior?"

  "Sixth Brother, although I don't know what happened to you, in my eyes, you're a real man, without any unpassable hurdles. I especially like that phrase of yours, 'those aren't even considered things.' If there's anything you need me to do, just let me know and I'll do it right away, as long as you're happy. Don't always be crying by yourself, you're still young, shouldn't be shouldering so many things that you shouldn't be shouldering. Do you understand, Sixth Brother? I feel the same way as Dong Ge, you seem like a very mysterious person. You're not tall or strong, but you can fight, and you often appear very cold, sometimes even scary, but then you're passionate like fire, laughing and joking with people... and when you're alone, you cry so much it's like a flood. I really don't know which one is the real you, Sixth Brother. Be happy, okay? No matter what happened in the past, you can't always live in memories, right?"

  Big Brother patted me on the shoulder "Is there anything I can help you with? Just speak up. No need to hesitate"

  "Really?"

  Big Brother Dong nodded seriously "Absolutely true"

  I stretched out two fingers "First, don't let us hear your computer's ** sound while we're sleeping, second, don't let us hear your phone's alarm clock ringing when we wake up. What do you think?"

  Dong Ge was taken aback for a moment, took a step back, and gave me a very sinister smile "Apart from these"

  I sighed "I'm going out for a walk"

  "Everything is locked outside. Where are you going?"

  "I'll be right back, you guys wait for me, I just want some quiet time to myself."

  "Alright, I'll let you off for today. You can take the day off and don't have to listen to my computer sleep tonight. Whatever happens, just be more open-minded."

  "I understand, I get it." I sighed and said "There's nothing that can't be passed, it's just that you can't go back" After finishing speaking, I slowly opened the door, the dim yellow light in the corridor, occasionally with pedestrians, my hands were in my pockets, and I walked down from upstairs. When I wandered aimlessly to the bottom of the building, I found that the door downstairs was not locked, and the guard room inside was still lit, it seemed that going out for a walk wasn't impossible either.

  I wandered out of the dormitory and turned around in the campus, it was late at night, there was no one, I walked to the school gate, it was already twelve o'clock, only the dim lights around, suddenly a cool breeze blew over, feeling a bit cold.

  My mind is full of melancholy. My mind is filled with memories of our past, I don't know how it happened, but we walked out of the school gate and onto an empty street, just me alone. I walked forward for a long time, not knowing how far I went, the area around the school was actually small houses built by villagers themselves, each house had only one room, like a small inn, 20-30 yuan per night, quite cheap.

  I went out and walked for over 10 minutes, then suddenly felt tired. I looked around but didn't see anyone, so I found a utility pole to sit under. My mind was a mess, so I lit cigarette after cigarette.

  At this time, my phone rang.

  I picked up the phone and said "Hello".

  "Sixth child, where did you go? The dormitory building downstairs is locked, where did you go? Why can't I find you on any floor?"

  "Oh, don't wait for me, I won't be back tonight, I'll just stay out and have a quiet night, okay"

  "Don't even think about it"

  I smiled and said, "Don't worry, Big Brother Dong. I just want to vent a bit. I'm fine myself. When I get tired from walking around later, I'll find a small inn for 20 yuan per night and go to sleep."

  "Then be careful, if anything happens, give us a call. How did you go out?"

  "I don't know, maybe it's fate, the heavens knew I was suffering to death, so they let me out to vent a bit, haha. When I came down, the dormitory gate was open. I just went out, you guys stay there, don't worry." After saying that, I smiled and hung up the phone, continuing to smoke non-stop.

  At this moment, I heard a voice "Give me one"