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  Dong Ge nodded after listening, and gave me a thumbs up.

  I'm also quite uncomfortable in my heart, I just didn't say anything.

  The two of us got up, simply packed our things, chatted for a while, and the atmosphere was somewhat dull. After all, Yu Ming's affairs were still in my heart, feeling very awkward.

  "Alright, don't be so gloomy, it doesn't suit your personality." After saying that, I reached out and pulled Dong Ge "Let's go have a smoke."

  Dong Ge nodded and we two went to the balcony, smoking.

  "Big Brother Dong, you've never told us about your past before. I'm really curious."

  "Is there anything to be curious about? We're all quite ordinary, the only mysterious one is you. At least I've already forgotten my past, but yours always seems to bring tears to your eyes."

  "Right." I thought for a moment "My past is a legend, when I have time, I'll write it into a book, who knows, it might even be a bestseller. Like Han Han."

  "You're still writing books?"

  "What's wrong with me?"

  "Can you write an essay?"

  "No, I never learned it since I was little."

  "That hairy book."

  "According to what you're saying, it's not even allowed to touch?"

  "What kind of logic is this?"

  "This is your pervert's logic."

  "Haha." Dong Ge pushed me a bit. "Write it, bro supports you. I lived to 20 years old and only truly understood what the two words 'brothers' mean when I met you guys. Pangzi Tao was close, but I consider him a brother too. You and Bao Long, really. I'm quite happy."

  "It doesn't matter."

  Big Brother Dong shook his head "I really didn't have many friends before, at first I thought I had brothers, do you know why my dad was so strict with me? Do you know why my dad always scolded me as a prodigal son?"

  "You're really extravagant, spending several thousand every month, is that something a student should be doing?"

  Big Brother Dong hugged my neck "Because I'm unlucky with people."

  "Bad luck in meeting people?"

  Dong Ge nodded, "When I was still in junior high school, it was even more different. Who knew who? Every month was just a few hundred yuan, and there was no one at home to give me money. If I had money, I would save it. But looking at those people who were mixed up in school, the girls around them were always very beautiful. So I had an idea, I also wanted to mix."

  "But in junior high, everyone already knew each other and understood each other, so it was hard to fit in. So when I got to high school, I transferred to a new place and started fresh. The situation was similar to our dormitory, but the rules were stricter. At that time, I was still young and naive, thinking about brotherly loyalty all day long. I hung out with my roommates, eating together, drinking together, chatting together... doing everything together. I treated them like brothers, but they just saw me as an ATM."

  "What does that mean?"

  "Dong Ge thought for a moment, 'When we're together, I'm the one who spends all the money. In a month, I can spend 1,000 to 2,000 yuan, while they only have 400-500 yuan in living expenses. At that time, I thought, we're all brothers, no big deal. And after getting familiar with school, it's naturally going to be glorious.'"

  "Money cannot measure the feelings between brothers."

  "That also depends on the timing." Dong Ge said helplessly. "I still remember, at that time they encouraged me to pursue a girl, she was pretty, but just that kind of promiscuous girl. But I didn't care, that girl flirted with me every day, I spent money on her, and she accepted it all. Every time I mentioned getting serious, she wouldn't agree, and the people around me would encourage me, saying she was testing me. I stupidly believed them and continued to spend money on that girl for a whole year. Because of this, I took out who knows how much money from my family. It was all spent on her. Later, that girl finally couldn't bear it anymore and told me the truth, saying that she had colluded with several people around me who I thought were brothers. She said those people were untrustworthy. At that time, I felt like I'd been struck by lightning. How could this be? In a small restaurant near school, I drank too much wine alone, although it was less than a bottle, but I felt extremely uncomfortable, wanting to cry, but unable to. My head hurt so much, and I rolled around on the ground hugging my head. Many people laughed at me. Originally, I didn't have much of a tolerance for alcohol, but this time the effects of the liquor made me stand up, grab a stool, and charge at the people laughing at me, and at that moment, I smashed it into his head and broke it open. I chased away several people."

  "Awesome." I gave Dong Ge a thumbs up.

  "It's okay, I guess." Dong Ge smiled at me and said, "Later on, I found out that the person I beat up was a pretty good guy from high school, and he had some friends outside of school. They came to our dorm at night, and as a result, we all got beaten up. Of course, it was my fault for starting things, but when we were getting beaten up at night, those people actually helped me out, which I appreciated. I thought to myself, 'I'm really stupid for believing what that woman said, especially since she had a bad reputation.' That same night, I even bought them food and cigarettes as a thank you. I was really naive, maybe because after getting beaten up once, they knew the other side was tough, so they started to distance themselves from me on purpose. In the end, I got beaten up again and lost a lot of money. From then on, I realized that in their eyes, I was nothing. One person who had a relatively good relationship with me even secretly told me that they never considered me a brother, but just because I had money, so they hung out with me. I was like an idiot, following them around, playing, causing trouble, giving them money, taking them out to eat, and going to KTV. As for why that woman told me everything, it was because she had fallen out with those guys, not because she had a change of heart. From then on, I didn't have any 'brothers' anymore. I didn't go to school much, and whenever I did, I would just go to places like KTV***, where you could sing and be accompanied by girls. It was a great feeling, and most of the girls looked pretty good too. They would please you, you would give them money, and everyone would be happy. At least it was all sincere. So, I kept going in and out of KTV places. The money my family gave me wasn't enough to spend, so during the day, I would go to internet cafes, and at night, I would go to KTV or get a massage. It was pretty enjoyable. When I didn't have enough money, I started secretly selling our family's jewelry, phones, and other stuff. My parents found out and beat me up, but I didn't resist or talk back. They said all sorts of hurtful things, but I just ignored them. That's how it was. Later on, they would lock me in the basement, so I didn't have many chances to mess around. I even ran away from home a few times, but it never worked out. Without money, I would go back after a few days. At least it was better than starving to death. After that, I went back to school. I just didn't live in the dorms or hang out with those people anymore. I still got bullied and treated like an idiot, but I mixed around for almost two years. When the college entrance exams came around, I wanted to leave this place behind and go somewhere far away to a private university, where I could be happier. Since I hadn't been studying much anyway, how was I supposed to do well on the exam? Besides, private universities don't require scores, so I just took it easy and got whatever score I got. Later on, I got cheated into coming here. Looking back now, I really was an idiot. But who hasn't been young and foolish before?"

  "Big Brother Dong threw away his cigarette. 'But it's okay, my efforts have finally paid off. You see, now I've gotten to know all of you, and I'm really happy. You guys treat me like a true brother, like a true friend. At first, I didn't want to study here at all, I even thought about leaving after I arrived. But then I met all of you, and I really couldn't bear to leave. I was originally planning on leaving this place too, every time I saw this city it made me feel sick. But meeting all of you gave me the motivation to stay. That's why when you said you wanted to leave, I made up my mind to follow you - because I've been wanting to leave for a long time. But being with all of you makes me really happy, so that's why I stayed. Don't laugh at me, but in high school, I was always looked down on by others, treated like an idiot. It was even worse than when I was in middle school and nobody knew who I was. But now that I'm in college, there are a few people who know me. And now that I'm in university, it's a whole different story.'"

  I smiled at Dong Ge and said, "Don't think too much about it, it's very normal. Many people are like that - in middle school they're one way, in high school they're another way, in college they're yet another way, and after entering society, they change again. It's because people slowly mature and change over time, everyone will change. The closest example to me is my brother. In middle school he was bullied, in high school he became a big shot and started hanging out with us, fighting, drinking, skipping school, and playing games online. Now that he's in college, at a key university, he's already planning his future as the top priority in life. Because of a girl who had deep prejudices against him being a troublemaker, she wouldn't acknowledge me and wanted to cut ties with me. It was because she broke up with her girlfriend from before, to ensure that she could rely on this new girl to get into graduate school, and then get a master's and Ph.D. Now he's already transformed from following us around to becoming the leader of a group of people. You say, isn't the change huge? Wait until he enters society, he'll change even more, who knows, maybe he'll become a big boss. Actually, all these are very normal phenomena. As long as you smile and don't take it seriously, there's nothing to worry about. It's still that saying: 'there's no hurdle that can't be crossed, there's no person who can't be killed.'"

  Big Brother Dong nodded "That's really well said, but I look down on people like that. People like that, once they enter society, won't amount to anything."

  I turned my head and thought for a moment, "Brother Dong, you're wrong. It's people like that who can make it big. They put benefits above all else, are ruthless enough, and rational enough to know what they need. For their own needs, they'll use every means possible. People like that have a higher chance of succeeding. That's just how society is now - it's dog-eat-dog, only money matters, not people."

  "Sixth brother, you're younger than me, but I feel like you're much more mature than me."

  "Because I've been hurt a lot more than you. After saying that, I pointed to my own body "Some scars are still very obvious, some may not be obvious, but if you look closely, you can see them too, haven't you studied this before? These are the marks of maturity."

  Big Brother Dong pushed me and said "You'd better not come." He pointed at my finger with a ring on it and said "This scar on this finger of yours that's wearing the ring seems to be the most serious one."