Chapter 3: Regret for Not Meeting Before Marriage

  Ye Ming saw: Chen Yi's QQ space was set to be not open to anyone, from which it can be seen that her sense of vigilance is very strong, and also proves from one side that the content of her space diary is absolutely very important, very confidential, and may even be some dark content that cannot be exposed to sunlight...

  With a nervous heart, Ye Ming opened the "Diary" column in his space.

  When the page opened, a title at the top suddenly caught Ye Ming's eye, causing his blood to almost freeze in an instant.

  The title of this diary is: "Regret Not Meeting Before Marriage", which is an original diary written by Chen Yi, not a forwarded article.

  This topic is obviously Chen Wei's heartfelt confession: she has fallen in love with a man, but she is already married and cannot express her feelings to the man she likes, nor can she be with the person she loves, so she can only pour out her admiration and longing in her private diary.

  For some reason, when Ye Ming saw this title, he suddenly felt a strong sense of jealousy: who was this lucky man? What magic did he have that could make Chen Yi, the elegant and noble "Number One Flower of K City's Tax System", feel "pity not to have met before marriage"?

  Could it be that this person is Li Li?

  There's a saying: A good woman is afraid of a persistent suitor! Women like Chen Yi, who appear refined and melancholic on the surface, seem difficult to approach, but in reality, they are extremely tender-hearted. If they encounter someone who persistently pursues them, they often become softer than those outgoing girls who frequently flirt with men, and are more easily captured by men...

  Li Li was a man who would stop at nothing to get what he wanted when it came to chasing women. Moreover, as the head of the county bureau, although his character was not good, his work ability and eloquence were excellent, and he also had a certain charm as a man. Faced with his crazy pursuit, Chen Yi, who originally had a bad relationship with her husband, might find it difficult to resist, and perhaps had already secretly agreed to his advances.

  Perhaps, the disgust and coldness she usually shows to Li Li is actually a pretence for everyone to see, it's her way of avoiding suspicion. In fact, she has long been captivated by Li Li...

  Just thinking about this possibility, Ye Ming almost didn't have the courage to open that diary and look at its contents. Moreover, facing this shocking title, he felt a sense of shame for prying into someone else's privacy, and his heart began to scold himself: "Ye Ming, when did you become so despicable and base? Chen Yi trusted you with her password, how could you use it to pry into her private affairs? And what's more, this secret involves her reputation and image in an extramarital affair, which is the most secretive thing in her heart. Isn't it too immoral for you to pry into it like this?"

  After hesitating for a long time, Ye Ming finally didn't open that diary: No matter who the male protagonist in the diary was, anyway, he would be a mystery forever in his heart.

  As she was about to close the diary page, Ye Ming inadvertently glanced down at the next entry and suddenly saw the title of the latest entry: "Dear little brother, sister misses you", written three days ago.

  Younger brother? Chen Yi seems to be the only child in her family, without any siblings! Why did she write such a diary entry? Does she have a very close younger male cousin or sworn brother?

  Because it was a diary written for his younger brother, it didn't seem like a very secretive thing, so Ye Ming casually opened it and took a look at the contents inside. Suddenly, he felt as if he had been struck by lightning, and his body began to tremble uncontrollably...

  "Little Yezi, my dear brother, do you know that sister is thinking of you? In more than ten days, you will be back from the provincial bureau to work, and you will sit across from me like before. Sister really can't wait for this day to come!"

  After being stunned for several minutes, Ye Ming finally came to: the younger brother Chen Yi mentioned was actually herself! Why did she have to write such a deeply emotional diary? Was it because of that diary "Regret Not Meeting Before Marriage"?

  The protagonist, is he Ye Ming?

  At this time, he couldn't care about shame and moral sense anymore. He quickly moved the mouse to that top-posted diary, opened it, and with an extremely excited and curious mood, read it word by word:

  "As I write this title, I have a deep sense of guilt in my heart. But if I don't write this diary, I'm afraid I'll go crazy sooner or later!"

  I don't know from which day on, this heart of mine, as quiet as an ancient well, began to stir up ripples.

  I used to think that: a married woman, if she likes another man besides her husband, even has an affair with a stranger, it's a kind of vulgar thought, a despicable behavior, a shameless fall...

  Although my marriage is not happy, and I know that Li Zhi is promiscuous outside, I have never thought of having an affair or revenge on him - the family I come from does not allow me to do so, the education I received does not allow me to do so, and the loyalty and purity in my heart also do not allow me to do so. So, all along, I am not moved by external temptations, nor do I give any opportunity to men who covet me. I want to spend this life calmly and quietly according to the creed and principles I adhere to.

  But his arrival thoroughly shattered my tranquility and completely overturned my faith.

  He is so handsome, handsome to the point where one glance makes you feel refreshed; he is so erudite, so talented, I've been in university for four years and worked for six or seven years, yet I've never met a man like him who speaks fluently and has quick wit; he is also so optimistic, so humorous, as long as he's around, there will definitely be laughter and joy, it will definitely be relaxing and pleasant...

  I confess: I've fallen in love, it's that kind of deep-seated, bone-penetrating romance!

  It wasn't until now that I realized: falling in love with someone is so wonderful, so enchanting, yet so troublesome...

  And at that time, I also understood: my husband Li Zhi and I were not in love, but a natural combination of door-to-door neighbors: his parents looked up to the intellectual family background of my home, while my parents looked up to the hundreds of millions of wealth of his family.

  I understand my parents' thoughts: they just want me to live a rich and peaceful life. And I, since childhood, have been a obedient girl who listens to her parents, so in the absence of love, I vaguely married Li Zhi...

  If it weren't for his appearance, if it weren't for the huge waves he triggered in my heart, I might still not have experienced the taste of love, and might still have thought that relationships between men and women were all like mine with Li Zhi, relying on marriage to hold them together, and then walking through life in a dull and unremarkable way...

  Unfortunately, when I started to savor the taste of love, I no longer had the right and qualification to taste this sweet and intoxicating wine of love. I was already married, to put it bluntly, I was a withered flower, and I was also three or four years older than him.

  And he, so sunny, so handsome, so excellent, should go find a pure and beautiful young girl like a flower, not someone like me who is already faded...

  I think I've always been a very rational person, even if my heart is wildly thinking of him, even if I often lose my appetite and can't sleep at night, but I've never revealed half a point in front of him. I believe he should also have no idea: this sister sitting across from him often has her intestines broken for him, often can't sleep at night for him...

  I like to take care of him as if he were my little brother. I know that since birth, he has no father and his mother passed away after just starting work. Although on the surface he appears optimistic and cheerful, in reality he is a lonely child with no one to rely on. So, I often ask him to pack up his clothes for me to take back home to wash, and often cook some good dishes and invite him over to my place to eat...

  These things that show concern for him and take care of him make me very satisfied, very enjoyable. There have been several times when I would hold the dirty clothes that smelled of his body odor before washing them, put them under my nose and smell them for a long time, trying to feel his breath...

  What's most embarrassing and humiliating for me is: recently, I've been having some absurd and unmentionable dreams. In the dream, he and I were entwined... what a wonderful feeling it was... under him, I felt like my whole body was going to melt, I felt like I was going to float up... and this feeling of being enchanted and charmed to the bone is something I've never experienced in my life, including when I was with Li Zhi.

  Each time I wake up from such a dream, my face is flushed and my heart beats fast for a long time, and at the same time, I fall into deep self-blame: What's wrong with me? How did I become so shameless and vulgar? Why do I always have such absurd spring dreams?

  What's even more frightening is: One day, Li Zhi returned from a business trip, and we slept together. That night, I had another one of those dreams. In the dream, I was entwined with him again... For some reason, that night's dream seemed even more real, even more intoxicating... At the last moment, I couldn't control my passion, tightly embracing his body, and actually shouted out "Yezi"

  As soon as I shouted out these two words, I suddenly woke up. It wasn't until then that I realized the "him" who was leaning over me was Li Zhi...

  From that day on, whenever Li Zhi came back, I would find all sorts of excuses not to sleep in the same bed as him - I was afraid that I would call out "Ye Zi" in my dreams again, I was really scared...

  At this point, Ye Ming only felt his eyes moistening, and tears flowed down his cheeks uncontrollably...

  At this moment, the door opposite was suddenly slammed open with a "bang", and Chen Yi rushed in with tears streaming down her face. As soon as she entered the room, she flung herself onto the table, covering her face and bursting into sobs.