Ace
Why is she a Curse User (C.U.)?
She is so good person that she believes that everyone can be saved, even curse users… she believed so much in that so she became someone who has possibility of becoming one…
But she is also a strong, she knows how to adapt so she would never get hurt, that’s where Rho jumps in.
Even though they are both capable to survive the darkness… one of them choose to stay in the dark and help from the shadows, sacrificing her emotions, free time, time for relax… she has given up everything for a chance to save the world….
But Ace knows how to choose herself too. She never wanted to sacrifice that for everyone, but she would always choose even that option for someone who is worth it.
Nigel.
Why he is a C.U.?
He is a strong person but his curse can control him… because he got so used to it, the darkness, the curse, that he actually became one…
BUT.
Only for those he loves, friends, he will not mind to stay in the darkness if that means they will see the light, he wont mind being the dark if that means they will be the light.
Before he met them he was only a darkness that didn’t find his light, then he found them, he found his light. He was just a darkness that didn’t find his light, now he has, now he is still darkness but with light.
Ace and Nigel.
While Ace chooses not get to close to her darkness, so she would keep her safety too, (she never activated her curse), Nigel choose to stay in the darkness… but that doesn’t mean she wouldn’t do that for those she loves, she would do everything for them… but she has other ways to help others, in her own way that isn’t including her being hurt, while saving others…
Ace
What type of a curse user is she?
Ace is one of a rare C.U.
There is more types of C.U…
First type - The one where curse takes over and that person is impossible to get back to normal self, that C.U. CHOSE that way! (Like Aaron and Orobas)
Second type - There is also the type of a C.U. that can control his curse… but it is hard for them to do that, they are always close to activate their curse and when they do it's almost impossible to control it, and get yourself to your normal self. (Nigel)
But Ace is a RARE type of a C.U.
She has a curse in her, but she NEVER activated it… (that doesn’t mean she wont).
Curse doesn’t control her, she is the one that controls the curse…
It is hard to say if there is a way to help a C.U., especially those whose curse completely took over, like with Orobas and Aaron… well is there a way to help them, you tell me.
Hidden part.
WRITTEN ON PAPER
Kaya’s tea.
Drinks it when she is safe, chooses her time carefully, and when she drinks it, she is relaxed… She knows she is doing no harm by doing that, she is just relaxing that’s all… and because it helps…
Rho and Rikka
Rikka tells all the facts fast , that’s why Rho likes her. Their relationship is something like mother/daughter relationship… even though Rho dislikes kids, she decided to adopt her, without Rikka even noticing.
They are all a family… each one has it’s own role.
Rikka is smart even though she never had anyone to learn from. She never had a family, a mother, everything she has learned she learned by herself, so she needed to do a lot of mistakes, but at least once she learns, she learns. She was alone, really alone, but then she met them…
Rikka slowly started to see every one of them as a part of the family… The way Rikka sees them looks something like this:
Rho as a mother figure, Rin as a father figure, Ace as older sister Kaya as her cousin and best friend, Nuri as a weird friend that her cousin (Kaya) has, so trough time he becomes one of those friends that start to feel like family members… so she sees him as an older brother and a good friend, and Nigel, well he is like a crazy uncle to her.
So, yeah, Rikka is just a kid BUT she is extremely intelligent, just no one sees her that way because she is just a kid…
Similar to Rho. Rho was always very intelligent, from a young age, yet rarely someone took her seriously because she was just a kid, but she was also a kid smarter then all of them….
And now Rho did the same with Rikka… Irony, am I right?
Not family by blood, but family we chose.
One of hidden scenes… Written in light
They were sitting on the ship, and talking for a while…
Nuri was explaining something to Ace, and she was just nodding with her head.
They were talking about the things they do that is weird.
Nuri: Okay, yes, I am easily distracted, and I believe in ghosts… but… come on, that is not even nearly weird as basically all the things Rho does.
Rin looked at him coldly, and Ace hit him a bit.
Nuri: Ouch! What?
Rho stayed calm, talked like she has no emotion, even though she felt happy.
Rho: That is only reasonable, since I have the same feeling about you.
Nigel laughed at that a bit.
Nuri: See! I can’t even tell is she mad, or chill, is she just threatened me or what.
Rikka: Seriously Red, you do need to work on your emotion section.
She has her arms crossed. Rho was thinking for a few seconds, like spacing out.
Rho: Irrelevant so, no need. My brain works better without involving emotions.
She said cold. Kaya drinking tea.
Kaya: Does that mean you don’t feel emotions?
Nigel: Non sense, everyone feels them.
He looked Rho in eyes while saying that, he was telling her that he knew that she was emotional, even more than them… Nigel gave her that look, she understood.
Rho remain cold.
Rho: Yes, I feel them.
Nuri: So why you barely show them?
She was silent for a bit everyone waiting.
Rho: I guess… I never learned how to.
Everyone looked at her… in that moment Ace realized… after knowing about scars, she can tell that if Rho doesn’t know how to show emotions, that would mean she can’t even ask for help, she can’t show if she feels pain… she looked her in the eyes, Rho’s eyes were cold, but tired…
Ace tried to change the topic.
Ace: And that’s still not as weird as Nigel always slapping himself.
Nigel: I do that to wake up… What about Rin’s sleeping with teddy bear?
Rin: Well that was just necessary…
Kaya: You sleep with teddy bear?
She raised an eyebrow.
Rin: I don’t hug it or anything… it is just on my bed when I sleep…
Rho: That is a present from your mother, correct?
Rin nodded.
Rho: Well that is perfectly normal. She turns to Ace.
Kaya: Yeah, I mean Ace is always hugging a pillow when she sleeps, I think I never saw her sleeping without hugging something.
Nuri: Maybe Rin should gave her a teddy bear…
Ace annoyed.
Ace: Shut up…
Rin: I wouldn’t mind, if it would help you with sleeping…
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Ace: I don’t need a teady bear!
Rin: I mean if you want to hug me instead I wont mind…
He teased her. She looked at him with death stare, he laughed. Nuri was spacing out. Rikka tapping with her foot.
Rho: Can you stop doing that?
She looked at Rikka. Rikka stopped.
Rho: You we been doing that a lot lately, why are you so nervous?
Rikka: Who said I am nervous?
Rho: Well your body. You are not calm, your hands are shaky, you are not stopping to tap with your legs, you are biting your nails…
Rikka: Okay I get it!
Rho was still calm, but Rikka not so much.
Rho: Mood swings…
Rikka annoyed. Nuri whispers to Rin and Nigel.
Nuri: I bet she is on her period…
Rikka: I am not! You jerk. I am just… bored, that’s all.
Rho noticed some signs of addiction, but she didn’t say anything.
They kept talking and talking about a lot of things…
….
Ace: Well you guys are weird…
Nuri: We? What about you, you pee the longest!
Nigel: He has a point there.
Ace got serious.
Ace: And do you know why I do that? If you would know what kind of battle I have in my head when I listen those bullshits of yours sometimes. So sorry if I am being a good friend and never want to interrupt you guys.
Nigel: What does that have to do with peeing?
Ace: It means that I listen that well that I hold it for too long so blame me for being a good friend!
She starts to stand up.
Rin: Where are you going?
Ace: To pee!
Everyone laughed a bit, Rho remained cold.
Kaya: She got a point there.
Nuri: What is your reason?
Kaya: My reason is because I drink a lot of tea.
And she drinks more.
That is just one of their many conversations they have, some are shown some are hidden (at least for now)
SOME QUOTES…
I forgot how to scream when I had to be silent for so long, yet my scream was never so silent.
Just because I was silent, that doesn’t mean I didn’t feel, I just never learned how to show, to scream.
Now I am learning, and when I do…
- Rho
My scream won’t be only for me, it will be for everyone.
- Rho
ACE AND RHO
Ace was created from Rho…
Well, fun fact, when I was creating the main character of this story, at beginning, Ace wasn’t in that circle, actually, she didn’t even exist. So, I created Rho, twins, Nigel, Kaya, even Rikka, but still, I knew something was missing… Then I created Ace…
Well, actually, Ace was first created as one of a Rho’s transformation… but somehow I couldn’t let her to be just that… It still didn’t feel like enough… I liked that character so much for some reason, even though I had only picture of her, not the soul, and then I created one…
So Ace wasn’t just a transformation of a Rho anymore, she became a person, she became one of my main characters…
And every character I make, I make of my heart and soul, so yeah, they are all a part of me…
So, yeah, this is a story about how Ace was created and how she became one of my main characters… (personally my favourite),
Let’s do one more hidden part…
Ace PAST, when she was 15.
From a young age she was surrounded by boys, and trough time she learned how to adapt. Not only to adapt, she learned how to be one of them, she was raised like one, even though she was a girl… Yet she never lost her femininity, she just learned how to understand boy’s mind better, and that was mostly the reason she didn’t have much girl friends… but of course, that is only a part of a reason… never mind now.
She needed to learn to compete with them, she always needed to prove that she is strong so she would survive, and she was strong, almost the strongest… Even though she was able to beat every guy she trained with before (they were also good friends), she could never defeat Aaron… Her rival, friend, love… but at the end the enemy.
Hidden part from her past…
Ace, Aaron and the rest of male students were training, She was the only girl training with them, studying with them... and so on. Eligor as their master, supervised them. Ace was sparing with Wren, and she was winning… (sparing with katanas).
Ace: Ha! In your face!
She made his sword to drop. He raised his hands. All students turned to look at them.
Eligor: What did I say about that language of yours?
Ace: Sorry master…
She said relaxed, everyone else was very afraid of Eligor, but she? Never, but she always had a respect towards him.
Ace: So who is the next loser I will beat?
Eligor looked at her like he was getting mad, but he stayed calm.
Aaron: How about me?
Ace hated him back than, because he was the only one she never could beat.
Ace: Seriously guys, anyone?
Aaron smirked.
Aaron: Afraid?
Ace annoyed.
Ace: I am not afraid of anything!
Aaron: Prove it.
They started to spar. She was defensive.
Aaron: Not attacking?
Ace: I will fight the way I want to fight, thank you.
She swung with a sword, he dodge.
Aaron: Someone is feisty.
He teased her, she was getting madder and madder so she attacked again, and he managed to pull away, take a step back, and put his sword on her neck from behind. She stayed still.
Aaron: No matter how you decide to fight, it doesn’t matter, I will always win…
He whispered in her ear. She didn’t want to give up, even though she was already beaten. She put her arms in front of her and the sword. She managed to do that fast and to push sword away from her, she moved aside fast and kicked him on a side. She took her sword and she pointed at him.
Ace: Fight is not over, come on!
Aaron noticed that she had a few cuts on her arm from pulling away from him. He smirked and he started to walk towards her until Eligor stood between them, he turned to Ace.
Eligor: The fight is over, you already lost, go and clean your cuts.
Ace: No, I am still standing… and I still can fight…I…
Eligor: I said, the fight is over.
He looked at her with death stare. She stayed quiet for a bit.
Ace: Yes master.
She nodded and she walked away, with her head down and mad…
Later that day. Ace was alone, laying on the branch of a tree. She is throwing some rock in the air and catching it. She was talking with herself.
Ace: That stupid rule… I was not done!
The rock fell, she didn’t catch it, she got mad again.
Ace: Fuck!
She turns to look down and she sees Aaron holding the rock. She got annoyed again but she jumped on the ground from a tree.
Aaron: You lost this? Just like the match today?
He teased her.
Ace: You mean I only lost because Eligor saved you…
Aarom: Master, he hates when someone calls him by his name… And beside he didn’t save me, if anything he save you.
Ace: Yeah, keep believing in that, now give me that rock.
Aaron: Come and get it.
She got more annoyed and she reached for it, but he raised his hand up. Se was shorter then him.
Ace: That is not fair…
Aaron: So you give up?
He looked her in the eyes and she stood in front of him.
Ace: Never.
She punched him in the stomach and he throw the rock in the air and she catch it.
Ace: Well this was fun, we should do this again.
She teased him and started to walk away but he stood in front of her, stopping her.
Aaron: The fight is not over…
He started to tickle her and she dropped the rock and he took it.
Ace: You jerk! You know I hate that.
She ran towards him, she took the rock and she started to run, and he was chasing her. She was fast but he was catching up. He tackled her to the ground, soon they were laying on the grass, trying to keep the rock.
Ace: I will bite you! Let it go!
Ace managed to take a rock and she wanted to stood up but her grabbed her wrists and pinned her on the ground, he was staring in her eyes, she did the same.
She couldn’t pull away, she tried.
Aaron: Told you, I will Always win.
She looked at him mad, and she was mad at herself because he was stronger of her, she couldn't get out... He opened her hand with his and as he was taking the rock he placed his hand on hers, it looked like he was holding her hand only for a second, then he took the rock and stood up.
She stood up as well and shouted after him.
Ace: Hey, that rock is mine!
Aaron looked at her and smiled.
Aaron: Just like you are mine, what's your point?
Ace blushed and she started to feel nervous but also mad.
Ace: I am not yours... How dare you!?
Aaron: Maybe, but you will be.
He smiled and started to walk away, she was speechless.
End of this part for now.
I know you probably think what the hell is this, what kind of a chapter is this? Don’t worry everything has a reason, just keep reading…
Hidden part – written on paper…
Dealing with my curse
So.. I am a C.U. too (metaphorically, I am not crazy). Of course I am writing something I know about. I put my heart and my soul into this story…Of course I put myself too duhh…
Now, why am I the C.U.?
I am a C.U. because I spent my life trying to help others and be there for EVERYONE, everyone but for me... Even though the Rho is a part of me, I can’t be her all the time…
But I am also like Ace because I chose that way… My curse is similar to hers… It is there but is buried down inside, and that curse was created from being to close to the other C.U… Those who will never change…
Similarity and difference between Rho and Ace.
They are both very strong, they would do anything for those they cared about, they are not afraid to fight, but they choose different battles. Rho chose to help everyone and save everyone, so she gave up herself for that. Her emotions, free time, time to relax, sleep, she gave up a lot, and with that she ended up losing her voice…
Ace knows how to adapt, she knows how to stay close to the darkness and to survive it, but she is avoiding that darkness, she is avoiding doing the thing that Rho does…
Ace knows how to relax, Rho doesn’t. Ace knows how to speak up, Rho doesn’t, Rho is calculated, Ace takes risks. Ace is not afraid of her scars, Rho is. Ace will only save those who want to be saved while Rho will try to save everyone…
Now, written while listening to the music and walking trough the streets…
Rho is someone who doesn’t stop trough her battles, she just keeps walking, just like Ace… She is walking forward and cutting anything in front of her that can hurt her. So you can just imagine how fast they can win…
Quotes
We are the true fighters from a shadow, you can’t see us but we are here… - Nigel
A little light was all she needed but you could never see that, her pain, well hidden behind a smile… - Kaya.
If you only see my light, that doesn’t mean I don’t know anything about the dark.
- Nuri
There is a reason I learned to fight without a sight, I wont do that always, but when I put blindfold over my eyes, and when I show you that I can fight even with my eyes closed… that would mean you ask for it.
- Rin
I only existed as a very small light, surrounded by the darkness… yet I never let that darkness to touch me… and now I decided to go trough that darkness, and not only to survive, to be born again, and to finally find a light to be surrounded to. – ACE
We all fought alone before, then we found each other… with only one bond…
You just feel that is right… if you doubt even for one second then they are not your people at all…
That doesn’t mean the battles are easy, but it gets easier when you have someone by your side…
And if you claim you have no one, think again, this all time you had me…
- Nexara
I was just invisible… yet so visible at the same time…
I thought I would just keep watching in the shadows and trough silence, and that I will forever be hidden…
I forgot how to speak, I forgot the sound of my own voice…
And now I am screaming… and my scream is for all.
- Rho
It is time… stand up!
And she stood up…
SOMETHING I WROTE A LONG TIME AGO… before this story even…
If only you knew how many times I wanted to scream. You have no idea how many things I kept quiet about.
I wonder how many people dream of being what they want to be, what they are in their head, and how many people are actually who they are. Me? I wouldn't know how to answer that question for myself, I could try. Sometimes I am the person I am in my head, the person who will react exactly as she would react in her head, but unfortunately, that's only sometimes. As much as I don't want to admit it, I am more of a person who will suppress the person I want to have, suppress the person inside me who I want to be, and turn to the harsh and ugly reality, where we are created to play different roles, and none of the roles we play in the real world are the ones we chose. Why is that?
We could go into the philosophy of it now and go from one theory to another, but that's not my goal right now. The thing is, I'm stuck, stuck in my silence, in playing roles I don't want to be, my brain feels dead because for a long time I haven't been what I wanted to be. I've suppressed every desire, and everything I would have chosen that would have made me happy now feels so wrong. The world is changing, I'm changing, and I wonder, is this all part of growing up, or is there a way out of this? I didn't always think this way, I didn't always feel this way, and I don't know if it's something bad, or just part of a fear that I need to overcome for something better...
If I would give this words to any of my characters, that would be Kaya, Rikka, and Rho when was way younger.
And I don't want to lose myself for someone who doesn't have himself. That would just be irony that I wouldn't appreciate.
So yeah, this story has a lot of hidden parts that I will show chapter by chapter, don’t worry, everything will be out of the open… it just takes time.
By this, I am opening up… which is not an easy for me to do… what can I tell you, Rho is a part of me too, just like all of them are. I know this chapter is different but so am I… and I know it’s a bit messy but, so am I… I know it is not perfect but neither am I and that is okay…
I know not everyone will understand this chapter, but even if one of you understands, I’ll be proud. I am a rare one, searching for something rare…
So yeah, there is a lot more of hidden parts, hidden art as well…
Every artist hides behind their art…
I bet you hide a lot too...
Well I think I said enough for now… Don’t worry, next chapter is “normal” one, and the story continues… This is one of hidden chapters that will probably get lost trough the story, but they are as important as any chapter.
That’s all for now...
I am just an artist looking for other artists...
M.R.G.