Chapter Eighty-six: Rift of Torn Emotions

  The horse carriage entered the first resting town before nightfall, and it was then that Luo Xi Qi and Tang Xiao Xia had agreed to sneak away.

  Luosi didn't dare to tell Tang Xiaosheng in the carriage that she wanted to go to Nanjiang again, for fear of causing a dispute with Tang Xiaosheng and being overheard by Liang Hu who was driving. It wasn't until Liang Hu had arranged everything about lodging and went to take care of his own business that Luosi finally told Tang Xiaosheng her thoughts in the carriage when they were in her room.

  She said to him: "Little shrimp, I really can't just choose to leave secretly like this. By doing so, I would not only betray the King of Chu, but also the Moon God Sect, which has always been good to us. In the past, I deceived Han Yue by saying that the Ling Xian Grass was extremely important to the Moon God Sect, and even made Chen Xing, the Grand Priest, stay in Ba Tu for a month. I almost lost my life when I returned to Lin Yue Peak! He did all this just because of you! If we leave like this, the King of Chu will definitely issue a nationwide wanted notice for the people of the Moon God Sect. How can we face him then?"

  Tang Xiaoxia sneered after listening, and said to Luosi Qi: "Foolish girl, you are too naive. In any world, people do everything for their own selfish interests. Maybe they have given you something or helped you, but do you think they did it because they like you? They love you? Wrong, wrong, wrong! You're wrong. Take Chu Wang for example. He's so good to you now only because you are very important to him at the moment. He can't leave you and that's why he gives you all these benefits, begging you to please him. But when the day comes that you become useless to him or even a threat, he will get rid of you without hesitation, not even thinking twice!"

  Although Tang Xiaoxia's words made some sense, they sounded very unpleasant to Luosi Qi. She had a lot of opinions about Tang Xiaoxia's idea of only seeking self-preservation and disregarding others' lives. She said to Tang Xiaoxia: "I find that you've become so gloomy! No matter what you do or think about people, you always assume the worst. I helped Chu Wang solve some problems, but he rewarded me with the title of Goddess and allowed me to recruit my own followers. What's wrong with that? Do you think that after I helped him, he shouldn't be grateful to me and instead give me nothing, thinking that getting my help was a matter of course? Are people who know how to repay kindness all hypocritical and have ulterior motives, and are they bad people? And are those who don't know how to show gratitude cold-blooded and genuine, good people?"

  Luosi originally wanted to calmly and patiently persuade Tang Xiaoxia to go with her to the southern border, and after resolving the messy situation in Chu State, she would not care about the reputation of being a goddess or not. She was sure that they would do what they wanted together. However, Tang Xiaoxia's attitude and his idea of thinking everyone is bad deeply stimulated her heart, which had always believed that there were more good people in the world.

  Her string of rhetorical questions had also caused her emotions to become somewhat out of control, and after she finished speaking, she realized that her tone was a bit too harsh. Just as she was thinking of finding some other topic to lighten the mood, Tang Xiaoxiao, who had been stunned by her string of questions, looked at her with an expression as if he was looking at a complete lunatic.

  He looked like he was suppressing his emotions and said to Luosiqi: "Luosiqi, aren't you being a bit extreme?"

  Luosi heard that he is now calling himself with his surname, no longer just the last two words of his name. She also knew that her words were a bit heavy and made Tang Xiaoxia angry, but at this time, the topic has been pushed to here, these two young men and women in their youth, who can take the initiative to put down their self-esteem and apologize to each other?

  It's like the first quarrel of a couple in love, the dissatisfaction in her heart caused by the quarrel has formed a strong contrast with the sweetness of being in love. She feels that this matter is no longer about who was right or wrong, but rather because she took his feelings into consideration and discussed it with him, hoping he could understand her and face the difficulties together. However, his tone didn't have any intention of discussing, his words and expression were just like a strict math teacher scolding a student for doing a math problem wrong!

  Since he likes me, why doesn't he yield to me just this once? Am I the person he likes or a subordinate that must obey him?

  Luosi felt sad, but she didn't want to give up yet. She was also trying to control her emotions like Tang Xiaoxia. She tried to make her tone softer and calmer. She said to Tang Xiaoxia: "What about the Moon God Sect? Han Yue and Chen Xing are quite good to us, aren't they? Even if we consider them, we shouldn't leave now! I was in a hurry to find the Lingxian grass for you, but without their help, you wouldn't have recovered so smoothly." As soon as Luosi mentioned the Moon God Sect, Tang Xiaoxia's expression became even worse. His face turned angry, and he coldly snorted: "You mention the Moon God Sect? They're good to you only because you have the power of the Moon God within you! Han Yue's ambition is no less than Mo Ye's. She wants to use you to expand the influence of the Moon God Sect in Chu State. She has already benefited from you by curing the King of Chu and repelling the assassins. The Moon God Sect has become the state-protecting sect of Chu State, hasn't it? If not for her, we could have just stayed on Lin Yue Peak and thought of a way to return quietly. None of these troublesome things would have happened!"

  Luosiqi retorted to Tang Xiaoxia, "She's also understandable for doing this. Which sect leader doesn't want their own sect to grow stronger? Did Chenxing offend you or something?! He was willing to go against his will and agree to Potala God's harsh conditions just to get the Lingxian Grass back for you, and ended up being trapped there for a whole month!"

  But her last effort still failed, she saw Tang Xiaoxia reveal a very disdainful expression, as if everything Chen Xing did was despicable and unforgivable. She heard Tang Xiaoxia say to her: "How could he have known that all of this was for me? He must have done it for his Moon God Cult!" Tang Xiaoxia paused intentionally before continuing with another sentence: "Or, perhaps it was also to win someone's favor!"

  Someone in Tang Xiaoxia's mouth was naturally not referring to the leader of the Moon God Cult, Han Yue. Luo Siqi, even if her emotions were already on the verge of losing control, still heard who Tang Xiaoxia was referring to.

  Couples in love might feel pleased to hear such words from each other, and would ask with a smile: "What's wrong? Are you jealous?" But for Rosalie, hearing these words at this moment felt like an unbearable sarcasm.

  She finally couldn't hold back her anger and shouted at Tang Xiaoxia: "What's wrong with trying to please me? What's wrong with trying to please me? Even if it's like that, it's better than you, this big fool who never considers me and only makes me sad!"

  After a brief silence, Tang Xiaoxia's uncontrollable anger erupted. His eyes became terrifying due to his rage. He nodded at Luo Sicong, who was somewhat frightened, and said: "Fine, fine, I'm the scoundrel, and everyone else in the world is a good person!" He picked up the Lingyun Sword on the table, walked to the door, opened it, turned around, and said to Luo Sicong: "You can enjoy your wealth and glory in this era! Since you think others are more important than me in this world, I'll leave now and never be a stumbling block for you again!"

  The door was heavily slammed shut, and the huge rebound force made it bounce back half open, just like a wound left by Tang Xiaoxiao on Luosiqi's heart. Luosiqi's tears couldn't help but flow down, the sweetness of being in love was so short-lived, but the hurt that followed was so painful that it pierced through her heart.

  She didn't want him to leave her, but she sat numbly on the bed, feeling her feet were so heavy that she couldn't lift them up at all. She wanted to call out to him not to go, but her throat was unable to produce any sound that could keep him from leaving.

  Luosi heard the sound of Tang Xiaoxia going back to her room to get her luggage, she thought that even if she went out to take a look, Tang Xiaoxia would have already left the inn without looking back.

  She didn't understand what she did wrong. She now carries so much hope on her shoulders, is Tang Xiaoxia really that heartless and doesn't care about others' lives?

  "Since he's like that, then let's just break up!" Roskie wiped away her tears and looked at the seven-colored Linglong stone on her wrist, saying in her heart: "Tang Xiaoxia, you betrayed my love for you!"

  The next day, Liang Hu saw that only Luosiqi was going downstairs to have breakfast, so he wanted to go upstairs to call Tang Xiaoxia for dinner. Luosiqi said to him: "Don't go up, she's already left."

  "Is he gone?" Liang Hu's eyes widened in surprise, and he anxiously asked Luo Siqi: "Didn't he want to go with us to Nanjiang to rescue Wei Jiangjun? Why did he leave without a word?"

  "He didn't say a word, he just told me." Lucille didn't want to get tangled up with Liang Hu on this issue for too long, so she said to him: "He suddenly had something else to attend to, let's go first, he'll catch up later!"

  "But... " Liang Hu wanted to say something, perhaps he wanted to say that without him as a guide, could Tang Xiaoxia find the way to Nanjiang and reunite with them smoothly?

  But Luosi's bad mood interrupted his words, she irritably shouted at Liang Hu: "What what! Are you annoying or not! Don't ask again!"

  She didn't know how her temper had become like this, it just came out when she spoke. She wasn't always like this before. The surrounding diners who heard the noise all turned to look over and thought these onlookers were very annoying. Since Liang Hu had just been scolded by her, she was very angry and shouted at those onlookers: "What are you looking at? Haven't you ever seen someone who's been dumped?"

  In the Spring and Autumn period, people may not know what a broken heart is, but many people who were looking this way were shocked by Luosiqi's momentum and turned their heads to eat theirs.

  After Lucy finished shouting, she felt a lot better in her heart, but when she calmed down, she still thought she was too crazy. She wasn't like this before, people who knew her would say she was gentle and lovely, a very elegant girl! She asked herself in her heart: "Will losing love really make a person lose control?"

  Just then, she heard the conversation of two people, one of whom said: "The world is really going downhill, are the young ladies from rich families now so arrogant and overbearing?"

  Another person lazily echoed and replied, "Yes, yes, how can such a girl get married? Who would marry her and not suffer bad luck for the rest of their life?"